Slowly approaching the coda

while weaving a wondrous melange, a tapestry of sensation, sight, sound, music
taste, language its essential to pause, to absorb and try to grasp the essence of my
experience here in Brazil. It is all compellingly expansive, my soul and mind is bulging, overflowing with
folkloric traditions: a hallucagenic tea mixed with the crushed bones of a recently
passed family member, ground Dolphin sex organs mixed in another tea to give one potency or fertility,
and yet another crushed iguana sprinkled on the food of a straying spouse, to keep
his member listless long enough to drive him mad. The Amazon itself, a symbol for utter wilderness,
paradise, danger, harmony with nature, the first waterfall towards the heart of darkness.
It was near the mouth of the Amazon river on my birthday that I dreamt of being trapped in this earthly plane
of existence, realizing that I would have to wait until I passed over to feel the oneness that I have been
seeking with my soul mate or mates. It was made known to me that I would have to make do with
small wonders, the details of living, loving, music, friendship, food, doing dishes, walking the dog
for a while longer. Also my tears came flowing like oh no a river, yes profoundly deep tears of loss
and longing. My mentor, lover, mother being she was on the other side, appeared to me, And I longed to be able to communicate with my father what she meant to me, more tears came as I realized he would not ever totally comprehend.
I am finally feeling at home here just as I am about to spend my last 2 nights in Sao Paulo and depart
Brazil, another concert with Ana Claudia, Davson, and Ira, Montana and Fabbio Cury.new friends and old friends over the last week. Ana Claudia has worked tirelessly on this project shouldering 99% of the production responsibilities, playing on the CD's and in the concerts as well as financing a good portion of the entire project. Really a remarkable women, and outstanding achievement considering all the obstacles this culture threw at her. Bravissimo!!